Finding the right track

Tons of things happened during the past 15 days. I find myself standing at the cross of road. I may find opportunity in each of those roads. I can do a Ph.D degree at a university in the field I like. I can keep on working in the current company, where I have potentials. A Ph.D or not is really a question for me.

I have been longing for such opportunities for a long time, since the moment I got my master’s degree. When it really comes, I am hesitating. My heart tells me I should pack up and book a ticket to the US. However, I can’t only listen to my heart.

You know the Chinese are family-orientated people, especially for women. When I came back from Europe, I told my parents I would settle down. Now, I am happily married trying to settle down in Beijing. And then, comes the offer. If my husband were also someone who likes to travel around and see different things, my situation would be easy. “Global citizen” is the last in his identities.

I can hardly give up my job. I love the current job. With a Ph.D I may knock open the door to be professor in universities. However, the current job is creative, innovation and interesting.

I have to find the right track and follow it. Now, I am standing at the crossroad. Life is just one crossroad after another.